The Last Last Day Of School.

well school finished today which means im on holiday....well its not a holiday its a "study break"...pfft yea right!

well started like any other day
got to school sat with the group then went to roll call.
today nina decided to join us in roll call...teacher questioned but said nothing in the end...lmao!
then it was textiles...this was spent looking at past projects and trying them on to create a mini fashion show...this wasnt meant to happen but we did anyway!
then it was recess
amy singing i like to fuck while me and brad dancing to jai ho!
epic moves if i say so.
then it was english time.
my class had a total of 5 people, so as a prank we ran from MrWren who had just come back from jury duty.
we ran to j block staff room where we were questioned by teachers but then ran behind the class rooms to try and jump through the window..
FAIL
all the windows were locked for a change.
so we ran back around crouched down when we reached the staff room to go by the windows and ran into class.
while walking into class we came across a severd hand halloween decoration..SCORE!
we placed this in the door to try and scare Sir....i dont think it worked....
we waited about 20 minutes before sir came a checked on us and found us sitting there playing cards and me asking if i could climb into a cupboard to try and scare sir...
cue
"sir where the hell have you been?"
"we have been sitting here the whole time"
so sir handed us some sheet of paper..placed straight in folder and the question
"so how was the case? gory? i want dets!"
so the rest of my english lesson was spent listening to how a guy killed his wife...fun!
next was visual arts.
my teacher didnt show up and i was the only one there....
so i went down to the gym and played dodgeball (in a skirt) and helped clean the sports store room while also scoring an old baseball....yes!
then lunch..juniors running around spraying each other with water and us sitting there being awesome and discussing schoolies.
then the last period of the day
music
it was fun i spent more time with my textiles teacher putting the sewing machines away skipping through the TAS quad singing the wizard of oz with Nina, getting weird stares from the bio people and talking about anything and everything!
then after she had to run away and mark something i went back to music to find that Miss Kelly had fallen asleep on the class.
cue
run outside and go crazy!
i went to the visual arts room just to annoy Miss Verter one more time before the year ends with Nina...she loved it...i think
well then the bell rang and i had the last hour bus ride home then that was it!
but the ride was water fights and immature little juniors trying to be funny....i was never that immature when i was a junior like seriously!
anyways
it was memorable
im off
xoxo
KirRawr

Shot Gun Throwing Up On Her! 11/12/2009 09:54 from the Best Friend

in the middle of textiles and i burst out laughing at this message sent to me from who else but Matthew Dragoslav....
but ill tell you about that later...
ill start from where i left off...
the dance concert was fun me and britty laughing and dancing to the different songs in our seat and me and shannon cringing at the singers...
sunday was my rest day where it meant staying at home and relaxing and mabye a bit of cleaning =(
but monday was the start of our textile speeches...this continued from monday to wednesday and even to friday....but i was entertained by the messages and convosations that i had going throughout this time =)
monday night meant work...and monday nights crew are always awesome =) so much fun but the only problem was while putting wash up away i strained my arm but didnt relise this till monday night when i got home and was laying in bed.
tuesday was the yr 10 grad and being the yr 12 hospitality class....we catered for it...spring rolls, party pies, sausage rolls etc and i had to work the deep fryers...even after working them last night at work and had to work them again at work tonight.
but we got food after like always, so that made up for it =)
wednesday was the same a bludge  and i was home alone until about 10:00 but a couple arguements happened with my mum that night, we got over them quickly but going to bed that night bought on thursday as it always does....now i love thursdays but this weeks was different....mum was going to QLD for a week so she left me in the care of my grandfather and *tone in voice drops* aunty nancy.
now my grandfather i have all respect for, but the other person....which i dont want to mention her name has lost all my respect very quickly over 12 words said to me.
now thursday afternoon miss Slutvana came to pick me up from la scuola and we went to livo for the afternoon =) epic fun if is say so...me bitching about the quality of tightropes clothes her telling me to shut up and then walking into guess....haha fun =)
then laughing at the songs that were played going home before having to pull over because Matty was overheating...
when we finally got home we put all our new cards etc in our new wallets talked and laughed about old pictures and then watched the hangover till 10:00 when she had to leave.
matt calls me just after and we talked for about 20 mins and then the random call from ivana to me (me being the wrong person she was marnt to call)
now in the persons mind these calls were made at 2:00am.....someone should go back to school if they cant tell the time....
friday morning Matthew Dragoslav calls me while he was walking home from work....well this person didnt like this and told me to get off the phone. i did as she wished because i promised mum i would not argue with her.
i went to school more speeches this is when i got the messages that made me laugh and then had a fun day at school with subs and even had fun in music doing aural work....visual arts was spent alone in the digital media room trying to figure out photoshop...fail so random sites on the internet here i come =)

friday afternoon pop picked me up and then when returning home i went in the shower...came out and could hear clear from my room, my own brother and this person talking about me and another certain person.
i walked out into the kitchen thinking they would stop...but no they continued so i turned to them and said im not deaf i can hear and continued to walk to the office...
now it was about 10 minutes later my brother comes in and starts the arguements telling me to move out and then going to tell this person im moving out...i just simply yelled to the kitchen im not and then the witch came flying on her broom stick to the office to tell me off for yelling.
honestly...a nearly hour arguement of me apparently yelling and her telling me to stop yelling followed by your so stuck up you stick your nose up at everyone thinking your better then everyone else you need therepy etc etc....then mum being called...now this is what i say is bad timing.
then the witch said those 12 words which sent me physco...and i will admit i was going off my brain at her because this is somthing you just DO NOT say to a person no matter how much you dont like a person.
anyways while yelling at her for saying this she actually turned around and hit me.....yes hit me...a person not related to me at all had the nerve to hit me!
well mum picked up and only heard my yelling and then wanted to talk to me so i told mum and spent the rest of the night locked in the office...not because i was grounded but because i didnt want to see her.
so the convo's with mum saying she'll find another place to stay and even said i dont have to talk to her anymore then courtney ringing asking me to come up....YES
so i came to canberra the next day and spent saturday helping courts set up for her work xmas party that night, watched some movies house sitted while she went to the party, helped organise wedding stuff played volleyball with the aquatots staff...lost 67-33 hehe so much fun though and went to another work xmas party with her =)
todays just realxing and having fun before i go back and have to see her again -_-' but i somewhat REFUSE to speak to her...only cause mum said i dont have to...SCORE =)
well im off now to do some homework and and stuff until courtney comes back from work =)

till next time
xoxox
KirRawr

Happy International Ninja Day

yes it is international ninja day...SCORE!

well this week has been fun.....

monday i went to school, had my voice back and spent the morning at a MADD night meeting.
day continued as normal though.
until it got to pdhpe where brad tells us "oh yea i have conjunctivitis"
didnt think much of it till i got home, i had started to get it and i had madd night the following night. so i went to the doctors got some drops and then came back home, finished my work and went to sleep.
i woke the next day and couldnt open my eyes.
yet still went to school for the rehersal.
but before that was before school. i walked into school holding a tissue to my eye but as soon i as i got to the table, they already new.
then brad turned up to school. it was the countdown till he got behind me when i turned around and slapped him so hard i left an imprint from what he gave me.
then it was madd rehersal.
it was fun screwed up my song a bit but after all it was a rehersal.
the day consisted of
singing
drama
singing
drama
etc....
during acts we were all enjoying ourselves and william and david were too, especially the parkway drive songs, where they had to get up and hardcore dance....entertainment i think so =)

so the day was exciting if i say so myself
then after school had finished mum took me to the shops to buy some stuff she needed...i didnt mind, i bought Miss Eloise's and Sarahs present.
i was proud of my find =) and they were too =)
so home and then get ready to go back for madd night. i waited in the Quad with everyone, while everyone arrived. mum and rob made it just in time, and so did ivana.
ivana was in the front row, right in front of my mum.... LOL
and i could hear her from the other side of the performance space! LMAO
but it was fun and Ivana said that i know how to belt out a tune.
thats gotta be good feedback right?
and my principal, deputy, and one of my d&t teachers came up congratulated me on my voice and congratulated my mum on voice....why she gets the credit as well i dont know, this voice is mine =P
anyways
wednesday came singing....thats always fun, and relax's me
thursday skating my 2nd last lesson for the year, and for the next year. =(
im gonna miss skating alot and now the entire ice oasis has left =(

but a year break should do me good rest my ankles and focus on my hsc...

friday night was laurens 18th
it was awesome =) great catching up with everyone
details shall only be told if asked and i want to tell you.

work meeting this morning, and my boss is taking us on a cruise...SCORE =D
and then he took us out for breakfast as well after it....man i love my work!

well i got the fraleys minus shannon and teigan and vitchets dance concert tonight, awesome dancers =) shoud be fun =)

well thats all for now...
xoxox
KirRawr

I Know I'm Who I Am Today Because I Knew You

ok quick simple and short

friday woke up with no voice.
after a day of torment from friends screaming
"what speak louder"
and from teachers
" omg the transvestite is back"
*puts hand in air to answer question sir looks over and turns away then i squeak
"SIR"
"oh sorry i didnt hear you kirra what was that squeak down the back?"
"Fuck you sir" ......he just laughed -_-'
and of course Mrs Verter
"kirra whats up with you?"
"i have no voice"
*quietly* " YES!"

then friday night i left for canberra to see courtney, paul and jazzy for courtneys birthday.
went to dinner
italian so therefore nice =)
saturday means shopping, so mum took me to DFO and Brand Depot. Didnt buy much but it was fun, came home slept and then woke up and spent the day going from msn to watching desperate housewives back to homework then msn back to homework

monday means work

while tuesday means MADD night.
ive invited a couple of people and have to buy a couple of last minute tickets.....IVANA lol
but it should be fun =) i always love performing, gives me that extra boost in confidence and always makes my grandfather proud of me =)
so thats it for now.
back to homework
xoxo
KirRawr

I Could've Danced All Night And Still Have Begged For More =)

That title pretty much sums up this past 2 days....
funny shit
LMAO
after a couple of laughing sessions with Matthew dragoslav that shall remain nameless. i went to work.
like i said i love work.
i spent sometime when not at the window serving bitching and having fun convosations with colleen and bianca =)
....TRAMP! LMAO
anyways so that was the entertainment for the night =)
went to school with a massive energy boost =)
great day....
i cooked today in hospo...that wasnt that nice but then i had my MADD night auditions...got in...score =)
so its gonna be the same song i sung last sunday
well i got work in 1 hour another tuesday night with clean-up butttttt it should be fun =)
i just relised i use =) wayy too much but im just in such an awesome mood atm that =) is the best thing ever!. LMAO
see after everything that has happened, i really don care what people think of me anymore....dont like my personality?, my awesomeness?, or the way i can be friendly with people without wanting anything more to come from it? well haha thats your loss not mine.
see i sometimes judge people, but this only happens when im really stressed or not in the best of moods, but i try to give them a chance because they may be one of the greatest people ive met =)
and honestly you can call me whatever you want, slut, whore, bitch, stuck up, brat, tramp, worthless and honestly i dont really care =)
ive learnt to deal with whatever comes my way =) and handle it in a mature way =)
so take this into consideration =)
ttfn =)
xoxo
KirRawr

Kiss Me Goodbye Im Defying Gravity

well been a while since a last blogged...but heres the update in quick form...

• drama
• singing
• school
• work
• wicked
• drama
• singing
• party
• work
• school

it pretty much continues like that....

soo im gonna start from the last thursday that passed....

i went to the ballet with mum and rob, it was entertaining...men dancing in tutu's...never thought i would actually see that =P

soo after my entertaining thursday night came the fun art workshop, where i spent the day painting with different mediums...alot of fun, except most of my pictures that were meant to look like a rams head or seed pods, came out like penis'...what can i say im talented...LOL

anyways

friday night saw one of the best nights, Nickelback live at acer arena with a full concert expirience....

i felt like i V.I.P walking around with my pass, appitisers and free drinks before the show, first access to the arena so i was right up the front followed by free ice cream afterwards =)

the concert was awesome, chad is gorgeous and winked at me =)...id be his groupie anyday ;), they had awesome pyrotechnics and even beer o clock....this involved chad throwing cups of beer into the crowd and making the crowd smell like beer while trying to get drunk with the drops that were left in the cup...but the night was ruined by 2 girls high on extacy with their shirts off...no guys they still had their bra's on...

saturday came an eventful day of making invites to my sisters engagement party...oh yea my sister finally got engaged after 5 years soo congratulations bella =)

soo invite making, then having to restick diamontes on to a top hat so they wouldnt fall off on saturday night at my comp.

while getting ready for my comp i

• burnt my chest with a curling wand
• screwed my eyeliner up and poked my eye with the pencil
• sprayed hairspray in my eye
• put a hole in my stockings
• and ran out of time so i had to put the rest of my makeup on in the car....

though i made it there on time, i failed really badly...just after going on for my warm up i became short of breath and hyperventilated...and no it wasnt nerves...

now dont get me wrong i still skated well, emotionally, but physically i was not in the best of shape that day.

so i left not sure what i came, came home had a shower, checked facebook and went to sleep for the next day.

the concert.

i was up at 6:30am today to be at camden by 8:00 for a sound check when my concert didnt start till 10:00

but either way, i went, waited a while listening to my song, done my make-up and got dressed to walk down stairs to find eloise...once glance and she came over just to comment on my appearence...=) i love my singing teacher the best person ever =)

i went to help with the wigglebugs to help them get ready for their dances while trying to warm up.

so it was my turn on stage, i sung really well got alot of stares from a certain person....LOL, and eloise said my performance skills were excellent i only had to work on my breathing.

so it was backstage till the finale were it was over 30 degrees on the stage and i had to stand there with a black full length dress -_-' hot...i think so.

so after my concert i walked out to find my grandfather with that proud look in his eye making my self confidence boost just a little :) and he took me out for lunch as well :) ohh yea

so i came home, much cooler i say, done some hw (it always comes up in a blog) then went over to matthew dragoslav's place for his dads b'day, i spent most of the night playing mario kart with him and eating cake....LOL

then came home went to sleep, got up and went to school........ugh

too hot 2day.....and in the words of chad "i love australia, theres just one thing missing........o-zone"

well thats all for now... gotta get ready for work

xoxox

KirRawr

I Dont Believe You

a boring week ahead, and left behind me.....plans have been changed continuously..and pretty much the only thing keeping me going is helping my sister organise her wedding...
november 20 2010
1 year and so much to do...
im going to a bon fire tonight should be fun...but honestly im just in the sulky mood i am always in....
i got skating in 1 hour....1/2 hour of gliding on the ice to try and make myself feel better about myself...with my coach telling me what to do....i do love my coach..im just not in the mood for it 2day...
i got pinks funhouse tour dvd....josh gave it to me for my birthday....i fell in love with it..
then comes my ranty bit...
im sick of maturing too quickly...i just want to be a kid again when fights lasted 5 mins and the hardest thing to do was what toy to play with....
im sick of growning up
im sick of maturing
i want to be a kid again
i hate this!
eh screw this...no one probly reads it anyway
im going
bye

When A Heart Breaks No It Dont Break Even

So yes it has been a while since i last blogged...again..continuing though...

so im noe on holidays (Y) have been since tuesday (Y) i love finishing exams early =)

so saturday night mum decided to go out for dinner so we went to simons, the best chinese food ive tasted =)
so while getting dressed i get a call from matt asking if i wanted to go out...i couldnt make it unfortunatly...so after a little chat i got off the phone to find my ring tone going off, i had gotten a msg from kim asking what i was doing...confused i went to go reply when suddenly she walks through my door with a what dont you reply to msg's these days? lol
little did she know i was just about to send the msg.
so me and kim spent some time talking and bitching before dinner....she also helped me pick out somthing to wear and let me borrow her shoes....only if i let her borrow mine i agreed of course (i still have her's and she still has mine) i still dont know who got the better deal there =P
so i was ready make-up done and i went to walk out to get int the car and i got called over to go in the car with kim and josh, i accepted quickly =)
so the ride there was about josh speeding and nearly killing us about 3 times before sexy bitch came on the radio and me and kim started singing it and yelling it at random cars (Y) haha freak show ftw!

so we got to dinner and kim finally had chinese for the first time and taught her how to use Chop sticks =) i still feel awesome for this.
so we got desert and talked for a little while, then we left, me josh and kim in josh's car again...this time it was everytime we touch by cascada haha!

R.I.P Random Rabbit On The Road....

yes josh hit a rabbit on the way home, me and kim were speechless...

we got home and then kim had to leave to get back home so yea this ends saturday night...

monday = 2 exams NEXT

tuesday = 2 exams but finished still NEXT!

wednesday = AWESOME

i got told by josh that kim had an extra ticket for the script concert that night and that it was mine =D
so i was excited all day, then i went to singing came home and saw Kim and finally met Chelsea, Awesome girl as well =)
we spent all afternoon laughing at the simpsons and laughing at stupid stories we told each other, then we got ready and kim done chelsea's and mines make-up while listening to lily allen and kim bouncing over my room dancing to her LOL

we left to go to enmore theatre and most of the convo was as we were going down parramatta road lauging at the Nikki Webster school, some of the ugliest wedding dresses, and some of the most gorgeous ones, and of course passing a pole dancing place and me and Kim both start talking about how much we wanted to try it...(some weird looks from my mother here as well)

we arrived at enmore and Kim went off to go get some smokes so me Chelsea and josh went inside, we lost josh instantly and ran as close to the front as we could get about 10 minutes later Kim joined us and we started dancing to the random songs being played...

Wes Carr came on as the Supporting act, and Kim yelled " INVEST IN A RAZOR!!!" which sent me and chelsea into stitches, and then spent the rest of the time commenting on his excellent seizure dancing and jacket that looked like it was too small for him...all we knew were 2 songs from his album and we sung them too.

Finally he finished and then we went back to talking while they set up for the script...
they placed some towels on the stage and then without even thinking the ditzy oldies nexted to us started a convosation about why there were towels placed on the stage....this question was repeated over and over again....and then more joined with Have you ever heard the script? do you think they will play songs from their album? and more stupid questions...this had us in laughter and kept us entertained till the script came out.

it was about 9:30 before the script came on and played so AWESOMELY! LOL
everyone was singing breakeven, together we cry and before the worst, then their 2nd last song was I'm yours...*brings phone out and pretends to have a lighter* AWESOME SONG! and next time i got to a concert, im sooo taking a lighter!
the ended with We can be hero's and Danny came out with an Irish flag with Sydney written on it then jumped into the crowd...im sooo bumed i didnt get his flag either.
The concert was awesome and i had the greatest time it would have to be a great start to my holidays =D

2morrow night i have black eyed peas....i hope this is a good concert.. *fingers crossed*

till next time though
xoxo
KirRawr

Voulez-vous Coucher Avec Moi Ce Soir?

I hate renaissance music...WITH A PASSION!....honestly the worst movement in music history....

baroque wins the best movement in classical music by far, but noooo that was the next movement so i cant sing anything from that...
anyways...the day started out with me wanting to get up and study a bit more before my exam, that failed, i slept through my alarm, waking up at 10....i was meeting amy at school at 11....so i got dressed, studied a bit and went out to find mum and rob were still asleep. shit. so allen said he'd take me....so i got in the car, no petrol. hoped in another and it worked, but then we got to the gate and of course the gate had tripped out. i was stuck in the house. clock slowly ticking away...so pop turned up and thank god he did, so he took me and i made it to school with 30 minutes to spare till my exam...i was gonna spend this time studying, but i saw amy, channy and ben, and me channy and ben went for a walk....next!
so my music aural exam was an EPIC fail (Y) but it only counts towards 30% of my final mark....so i gotta make it count 2morrow, which brings me to 2morrow...
Music Performance.
so the line-up is as follows
get to school early to practise with amy
perform the following

• Small ensemble piece-this love by maroon 5
• Renaissance peice- greensleeves
• Film and Tv- One day i'll fly away-moulin rouge

im looking forward to the last one particuarly (Y) only because of my obsession with moulin rouge atm...i never really had a movie that has inspired me to do somthing with my life, but i think ive finally found one....

So 2morrow is my last exam for the week. looking forward to a weekend of studying...yay.. but it will all pay off when they are finished, only because next wednesday mum is taking me to get fitted for a corset dress (Y), 3 days off then holidays (Y), Black Eyed Peas concert friday night(Y), vitchets 18th (Y) then ryans the following week (Y) oh and of course going to the city with Amy to allens music to find a peice for us to perform at MADD night.

looking forward to the 2 parties if i havent already said. but this time i intend to act a little more ummm not the way i acted last time?...hopefully...this promise to myself will probly be broken though. still cant look some people in the eye. *shakes head*

i hope this weekend is a nice hot sunny one...i feel like tanning outside again while studying of course.

but hmm MADD night....i think im regretting giving into kelly and agreeing to perform. i dont know what to sing, i cant sing what i normally sing, i wont be seen as a normal person then...well im not seen as normal now but anyway continuing past that. if anyone has any sugesstions, i would take them into consideration.

so it's 9:41 and i should be going to bed, but im not tired....so im gonna write a little more....

but i dont know what im going to write about....hmmm

well my costume ideas for artistic...that seems good....well this is the main reason im getting the corset, but im not gonna pay that much money for a corset and not use it again soooooooo i will probly wear it to death by the end of the year =D im excited about getting a corset, ive always wanted one...i somewhat like that hourglass figure made by corsets...i'd love to have one...just not tiny tiny tiny....i nice decent sized waist i think.

but i probly wont get the waist i want...i can still dream though cant i?

and honestly this internet is pissing me off because its soooo slow atm....-_-' like very slow!

welll i got nothing else to say...

soo um yea

PEACE!

xoxox

One Day I'll Fly Away, Leave All This To Yesterday....

ok so it's been a while since i last blogged but hey ive been sick and also got exams (not that i care so much about them anyway) so gimmie a break.
and im not in that good a mood either, so stop here if you dont want to read a blog filled with winging and ranting.
so the last "adventure" i had was my birthday weekend. well i got back to school got a cold, listened to teachers go on about exams have 2 days off, go back listen to more teachers go on about exams and then spend time at home....exciting isnt it?

well saturday was miss amy's surprise party and bugger off party which me and my friends organised. she enjoyed it, i love her, marija and me were being slutty whores, (i love this girl =]) and people stared at me and my mgb singing in italian, perdono ftw.
channy made her a penis cake (surprise lol) and brad lap danced amy....dirtyy whore.

sunday was spent sunbaking and studying...exciting again ey?.

then monday began the preliminary examinations.....visual arts first off, the subject where i can say anything and get marks as long as im able to back up what im saying, then the stupid english exam which i more than likely FAILED.
FAIL
FAIL
FAIL

then came the fun part of the day.
work
work gives me money
work also annoys me
but when i work with the people i do
work is the best place i could be.
judy, sam, jade, jarrod, lisa, these guys make a tuesday night fun (Y)
from cheese and pepper mayo tortillas to "accidently" making the wrong drink, just so we get to drink them. each moment at work is sooo much fun.
but the best moment from work has to be judy's kfc bun sized racks and my burger bun racks. we love each others racks =]
oh yes and my wonderful burn marks from the deep fryers, i got so many, my manager told me to stay away from the deep fryers.

i had wednsday off so mum decided to take everyone to yum cha. yum much?
and i came home only to get changed and back out to penrith for skating.

I LOVE MY COACH

she always makes me feel better and is always there if i need her. i never wanna change my coach she's too awesome to lose.

so i started my artistic program today, sparkling diamonds from moulin rouge, and we are only into the into and im already blowing kisses to the crowd and judges and shaking my boobs for skating mums....hmmm.
but none the less this will be my favourtite program. i only need to find a corset dress, which mums taking me to newtown to find one which will probly be worn to death by the time the comp comes around.

only 1 more week of exams then its ryan and vitchets party, which im excited about cause it means i can let my hair down and have some fun, and also show a more confident me =].
plus ryan has a hot mum that loves me, so even better =]

and vitchets 18th, i needa find somthing to wear, black and white, i got an idea in mind but i dont know where to find everything.

so the dreaded music aural exam is 2morrow and tbh i dont care if i fail or pass because the performance is worth more.

lately though people have been asking me what i wanna do when i finish school, so like a dickhead i tell them my dreams and my goals in life, and then i get shut down and told that i'll never become anything great and honestly im sick of it. why bother asking if your just gonna tell me im not good enough!. im moving away from here anyway and leaving everything behind me. i will become what i want whether you think its a good idea or not.

oh and before i go theres a certain someone who i know doesnt read my blog but i need to say it anyway. i wasted one year on you and now you want me?....HA! keep dreaming lily expresses the right words for how i feel about you now!

I don't wanna hurt you
'cause I don't think it's a virtue,
but you and I have come to our end.
Believe me when I tell you that I never want to see you again.

And please can you stop calling
'cause it's getting really boring
and I've told you I don't want to be friends.
Believe me when I tell you that I never want to see you again.

How on earth could I be anymore obvious?
It never really did and now it's never gonna happen with the two of us.
I don't understand what it is that you're chasing after,
but it makes me really sad to hear you sound so desperate.
It just makes it harder.

I can see how it's confusing
It could be considered using when I call you up
Straight out of the blue
But I don't understand what else a girl in my positions' to do
Now I know you feel betrayed
but it's been a week since I got laid.
This doesn't mean that I don't think you're a fool
But I don't understand what else a girl in my positions' to do.

How on earth could I be anymore obvious?
It never really did and now it's never gonna happen with the two of us.
I don't understand what it is that you're chasing after,
but it makes me really sad to hear you sound so desperate.
It just makes it harder.
I know it's rather ugly 'cause I know that you still love me
and this isn't any kind of excuse
but I don't love you
I don't love you.

Dieci Cento Mille Mani Che Si Alzano Poi Si Muovono Quante Sono Non Lo So

so i promised myself that i would keep this thing daily....FAIL!...haha well after you hear my day that happened yesterday you will probly relise why i didnt bother to write one!....anyways starting all the way back from yesterday...

Saturday September 12th

ok so today my routine changed a little, i woke up at 6 this morning...idk y but i just did...then fell back asleep to be woken 1 hours later by helen so we could go and get ready for my party that day...so car was packed and it was time to head down to the park to reserve a spot....i ended up getting the biggest shelter in the park (Y) and decorated with heaps of balloons and streamer...i could even see it from the road..haha lol continuing...i ended up having to climb onto tables and railings in a skirt to hang up these things and im sure the guys in the lower shelter were watching me as well...so after everything was set up helen said she would stay and mind it while i went home to change, ice the cupcakes, get the food, straighten my hair, cut the salad and be back there all within an hour....man i am good (Y)...still carmen beat me there....so she helped me to carry the stuff up to the shelter and finish the last bit of setting up while the other guys came....*this starts ryans journey to the park* so everyone arrives and the party finally starts and everyone is getting hyped up on sugar (Y)....people talking, dancing and lauging the best way to start off the a party....soon the poles were discovered and brad was quickly climbing them and sliding down...what a stripper hahah..and trying to teach marija who kept slipping off it anyways....anyways ryan has now been calling emmas phone without her picking up. FAIL. party continues and soon my MGB arrives just after we had started cooking the BBQ....during this time marija pulls out onion, capsicum and tomato's...what a wog!..oh and of course her apron she bought...

...haha!...so the bbq was cooking and suddenly a cake fight breaks out...i had a penis drawn on my back with icing, jessicas top had turned brown and there was cake everywhere....thank you nina for cleaning it off me...so bbq continues and everyone was running around having a good time when ryan calls...

"im at the park where are you guys"

*explains where we are*
"i dont see you guys...."
"ryan which park are you at?"

"the one in cecil hills just up from the school" "ryan wrong park"
"FUCK NATALIE!!!"

*end convo*

soo he started walking again to the park...

meanwhile bbq is cooked and everyone is eating and still laughing =) then after lunch people started to go and tan while the bbq was trying to get cleaned....soft drink worked really well as well...just not coke... so the bbq got cleaned and people got back to talking...and brad swung on a pole...when marija decided to take a drink from her bottle...i tipped it on her thus starting the 3 hour water fight....phones were soon thrown in bags or used as defence weapons during the water fight and people grabbed the nearest cups, bottles and ballons that could be used to throw water at people... heres pretty much how it went...oh but first *insert ryans convo here*

"im at the quix"

"keep going straight"

*insert marija's EPIC stack here* yes she fell about this time because by me chasing her on the metal...she survived with a cut and bruised ass....
*ryans next call*

"where are you guys?"

"inside"

*walks around inside*

"i cant see you guys"

"which side are you on?"

"the side that says western sydney regional park"

"Wrong side!...*in background "this is the second biggest park in the southern hemisphere"

"shit"

so the water fight continues and keeps going till finally 1 hour later ryan comes walking in...marija and shannon went and met him at the gate and gave him a drink while me and emma run down to meet him and thrown water on him poor guy had been walking since 11:00 and it was now 1:30....so he joined the party and soon the party was complete....and the water fight continued...haha...so the water fight was drawing to a close and people were now tanning to dry off...soon vitchet had to leave so i decided to have the cake...a nice caramel mud cake too....so anyways the normal routine *sing happy birthday horray etc*....and now a new tradition....pour water on me just as im about to blow out the candles blow out the candles the shove cupcake into my face and down my arms....chocolate facial FTW! (Y)....

so the water started again...but was over quickly...so vitchet left and then channy brad and ryan decided to go on a bushwalk to find and "aboriginal nature grenade" and " an aboriginal fighting stick"....so when the returned to find shannon and courtney had disapeared...i started to take down the decorations and clean up...this is the time when the guys decided to play limbo and see how high brad can jump.....brad can limbo low and so can marija...and brad can jump over a height taller than amy...soon people started to leave and then the time was spent listening to songs from the past e.g spice girls and bringing back the old days (Y) haha so many songs i still remember the words too!...while brad pole danced more and more...like i said...stripper...so the mentors showed up and finished cleaning while i thought it would be a good idea to roll down the hill with everyone else....my good idea soon backfired and i became itchy VERY fast....so then it was time to go home while the others stayed and went to the other side to play some more...soo i got home, unpacked the car and headed straight in for a shower to try and stop my itching and also to wash the cake out of my hair which i had washed on friday night...so i got out of the shower and opened my presents....which i say i fell in love with all of them...playboy bunny necklace from ryan (which im wearing as we speak =D )...a gorgeous black necklace from vitchet, a black handbag from veronica, a gorgeous gold handbag from amy followed by a soap cupcake style from amy followed by a gorgeous keyring from amy....and of course the money =D...thank you guys soooo much i love it all!

anyways...while opening my presents matthew dragoslav calls me asking me about what was happening and what was i wearing...turns out he didnt like the skirt i was wearing...but i wore it anyway...but he now has permission to burn it... so i continued to get ready and blah blah blah the normal stuff so i was ready to go waiting for my grandfather to show....he came late but at least i was ready...so it was time for my next party...my sisters dinner she had organised for me...so there was the courtney paul pop nancy the endycotts, the andersons and isabelle and john. so it was chinese....yumm!...and simon offered me a drink...YUMM!!!...but i couldnt have it cause courtney was there so i stuck with my coke. so matthew gave me the other part of my present...the card...which also has gemma on it (Y)...and the msg of course made me a little teary eyed...i dont think he saw though...

*change topic*

....ok so youve heard me talk about this matthew dragoslav guy for while now and you will hear his name quite often......and if you dont know this guy is my best friend...each day passes and im lucky that i have him he done so much for me, probly even helped me without knowing it but i will never forget that night you stayed by my side and didnt leave me for a second, and even though he puts up with alot from me yet he still is as great (if not greater) than the first day i met him...he is my rock, he is like a brother and he means the world to me and i would do anything for him!....and without him my life would be really boring and i probly wouldnt be the person i am today.

*ok back on topic now*

so after i read the card with gemma on it i opened the present to find a picture of us two from the city earlier that year that he had framed and is now sitting next to my bed with the other one, and of course the earings.

the pandora earings.

the gorgeous pandora earings.

my lovely gorgeous new pandora earings.

i love them to bits and had to wear them the next day and i still have them on. (L)(L)(L)(L)(L)

did i mention how gorgeous they were and how much i love them?

so i fell in love with the earings but the had to put them away =( and opened my next present from my sister...a gift card (Y) and of course the wonderful msg inside "dear Kirra (bum) you will recieve a very dumb birthday card from an incredibly nice relative have a great one love paul, courtney and jazz" only from my sister....so from the andersons i got a nicer card =P and another gift voucher and from the endycotts i got tickets to the broadway show ive been dying to see for AGES now "Wicked" I love it and cant wait to go see it... p.s keep november 7the free =D

so we all ate talked and laughed and hen it was time to go home, me and courtney reliseing we had no way of getting in the house. so pop gave us his remote and soon we were off home...to find that between dinner and home courtney had lost the remote -_-'. GREAT COURTS haha. i ended up fitting through the gate and finding an open door to get into to open the gate for courtney. so it wasnt long after this i went to bed EXHAUSTED.

End September 12th

Begin September 13th

So courtney came and woke me up this morning so i could go over the andersons for lunch =). this was made up of me still teasing micheal about eating my noodles before and watching cars go around a track, talking to dean about school, playing with my little nephew from another species Jazz watching kieran and the boys play darts while tanning in the sun and talking to people i hadnt seen for YONKS!.

so i got to see Rob go on his birthday present a harley davidson ride in the morning. this is where i first saw my jazzy boy!....for those who dont know this is jazz my sister and her bf's dog, he is adorable and sooo cuddly =)

so anyways i played with him for a while, ate a bit tanned some more talked to dean about his MP and soon after that Tom shows up to see courtney and paul so we talked for a little bit more and then i was surprised my Mary-anne and the andersons with a cake along with Adam. Chocolate sponge cake FTW ()Y

so after eating MORE cake and deserts i decided it was time to go home and finish off some essays i needed to write. so courtney being the awesome sister she is bought me home to do my work.

so i got home said hello to the mentors and the randoms i didnt know they had bought home and then went in my room to find my computer had restarted and wouldnt turn back on. i chucked a hissy fit as i had 3 essays on there due 2morrow that i really couldnt be botherd re writing so i rang josh and he told me that my computer had crashed and had lost all my work. didnt help my situation and i started stressing and yelling. eventually i calmed myself down and started to re write them only to find that 1 finished essay later my computer decided to re work and i hadnt lost all my work. thank god for that!

so my night has been spent concluding essays and de stressing my self. and hey! this has been one blog where i havent winged about exams either....1 week left though...better get cracking! haha. well i think thats about it so till 2morrow

(still trying to find somthing to write here)

xoxo

KirRawr

I Dont Know Much About Clothes But My Hair Looks Fierce..

so ive had this thing for 3 days and ive kepts up so far...will i continue..eh who knows....yes well the day started normally, wake up singing while doing hair and listening to the news...only way to start my day...the 5 minute convo followed by the near miss car accident...and then finally la scuola..i was one of the first people there today (big surpirse) and was greated by carmen, jacque and bernadette screaming at me from across the quad...soon it was roll call, i met up with christina here and started talking about her ring that i had stolen from the day before...the very same ring that she had shoved up her nose when being bored...i hoped this was the only place she has shoved it..haha lol anyways...roll call was spent bitching about art essays and hw that had yet again not been done...surprise surprise...well we all know how my prelims are going to turn out....then started the chat about my partay 2morrow at the park and what to wear...hmm still have no clue...continuing..first up was textiles...now textiles is a subject you love to hate the theory..hence the status on facebook "Just got in textiles and already wants to leave." now prac side of things i love with a passion...learning about sweatshops jst doesnt appeal to me THAT much!....so the long lesson of textiles ended and it was time for a jersey commitie meeting....that lasted about 5 mins...so that was a little waste of time there...but recess consited of my friends trying to plan wht they would bring tomorrow for my party...telling the guys this was my party and i had most of the stuff already..but they didnt listen...hmmm anyways bell rings and it was english time...spent reading some gay incest story on veronica's phone...man that was just wrong...and talking to annisah about the video that was sent to both of us last night about a giant pimple
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VNOxn-paCHs
watch if you dare!.....
so english continued on and on talking about memento and journeys and blah blah blah...so glad when these prelims are over...
so english was over and it was time for music....and music prac FTW!...this is one of my favourite subjects because its spent with amy in the muic prac room having the time of my life =)...heres but today we were joined by some more people from my music class and heres pretty much how it unfolded katie playing the piano, amy playing the drums in time with katie, singing this love by maroon 5, followed by jade and maggie joining the group and singing tears in heaven while jade tried to mimick amy....group leaves and me and amy are back together...jimmy walks in amy outplays him jimmy walks out, bells rings.
yes the best times are had in music class....this was followed by lunch....this started off as a time to do hw i had not done, but quickly turned into a tanning session of highlighter fights, penis drawings on my arm and tying brad shoelaces together in a knot...and mr chandil dragging brad by his shoelaces..haha i love our lunch times... (Y)
art was next and it was the final sculptures being shown, shauns tea kettle, natasa wood piece and emma worms..which kept miss entertained for at least 40 mins...the last 40 minute were spent learning to write and essay, how fun....countdown started and it was hometime on the bus....me and carmen talking about tomorow then she left and me "fingering" jacques hair....off the bus and then the final descent down to my house, which was spent dancing to the new italian song my mgb had sent me....<3 <3 <3...so i got home to find out that my brother going to the drag races and going to see john race!...i was hurt because i ALWAYS go to the drags...its like the best place to see some really good looking guys while have the best time laughing at the pit crew and of course driving around the pits in the gold cart and of course laughing at all the people sitting in the stands while i get the corporate box (Y)...i love knowing people....but hopefully i will get to see john before he goes back to QLD...anyways, tonight is spent getting ready for tomorow, studying and writing essays....fun....well thats all for now
( i need a sign off here)
xoxo
KirRawr

I Also Fed Some Ducklings

so they day started off like any other, woke up got dressed watched the news while doing my hair and singing to tokiohotel when suddenly people decide to have a little chat on msn, miss lorber winges about school (normal..hahah love you bubs!) and chantelle tells me she has a certain cake waiting for me....*sigh* anyways i went outside for my quick 5 minute look at the people i live with and then the usual, slip the shoes on and yell ill be in the car...the only convo i have in the morning with them it seems....except for the stories that he tires to tell me, where i zone out into nothingness...seriously i listen more in class than i do to him....anywyas..i finally made it to school after having yet again a near miss car accident because he wasnt paying attention...i swear im not gonna make it in the car over these next 2 weeks....anyhow, i got to school right on the bell to walk down to our morning spot to find channy jacque and jess waiting for me and channy giggling and holding a box....which i had to carry around for roll call and p 1+2...thank god it was music prac time...

me and my mgb had our usual room after our practise of our performance and laughing about a floater....(inside joke) i somehow ended up on the drums....and let me say i can play the drums pretty good...even act like that cadbury gorilla haha amy: the high hat has an erection for you!" haha i love this girl...she makes the sun shine on the darkest of days (Y) so after we both had our little play on the drums and my epic fail on the piano trying to play my immortal by evanescence....the bell rang and it was time for recess....

heres how it unfold...

"open the cake"

"im a little scared to....lets wait for channy"

*channy walks and sits down*

"shit"

opens lid to find this

yes it was my birthday on tuesday....and this was my cake that was made for me by the wonderful cake maker chantelle....this however was a funny recess of people liking nipples and eating "vaj" cake and hiding it from teachers and junior students...

then the bell rang and it was torture time in hospo...yearly notification was handed out *sigh* yearlys...just another stress week to try and make students feel more depressed about not being able to do good in school... screw prelims!....

anyhows boring hospo lesson the only good thing was stealing christina's ring which she stuck up her nose...she says she cleaned it...i hope she did....any how next it was pdhpe time.....casual teacher so not much work was done....and it was me thinking about anything and everything dirty...soon there was a bet that i couldnt last the rest of the day without saying somthing dirty.....i new i could so i took the bet......i lost.

now it was lunch time....the best time of the day...we got lunch and headed to our spot on the oval where marija, amy and i started to make use of our time by tanning...the teachers thought we were freaks and pretened to be our busboys...im still waiting for my drink...while the rest of the group planned late night where i wasnt invited because they were going to get my presents...well a good tanning session and brad throwing grass on amys vaj, it was music time where we started doing past hsc papers to practise for our prelims...all i say is...FUCK YOU PRELIMS!....

english was boring today...natasa got moved today...lucky not all of us...and then finally home time....where i have to spend 30 mins of my day listening to juniors be so childish...thank god jacque finally yelled at them and that kept the trip quite...ipod ftw though....so i got off the bus, walked home to find only allen home (Y) so it was a quick snack and then off to homework....and yea thats pretty much my day from waking up to falling asleep...so yea till next time

<3

KirRawr

Wasting time on a wednesday night

welcome to the first actual post from my view that isnt about silent j devirginating my blog....<3 you silent j!
so i could make this a boring blog and write alll about my day but i think im just gonna write about my more eventful afternoon...and have a winge...i needed a place to winge
soo english i got moved for laughing at some guy leaf blowing....but only cause jacque made me picture him falling off the roof....still makes me laugh now...then i had to give a presentation in visual arts about my sculpture...seems everyone thought the perspex pipe i took off my sculpture was for me to snort coke....and the white sugar in the box didnt help either...but either way epic fail there...sorry matt but your a hard person to represent in a sculpture...anywayyyysssssss......finally lunch (Y) where the topic was soft serve ice-cream and how i am apparently the sluttiest person in the group...honestly i am not...brads more of a slut then i am....haha lol...after the ending result of nina finding a spider on her bag and having the year 10's telling her to shut up..it was torture session of music... (told you i would winge) where me and amy my wonderful mgb are now performing together for MADD night and yet have no clue what we are going to perform...and man these nails are pissing me off while typing....a little off topic but get used to it...finally surprise aural test was over and nick as signora ciapponi was soon in the topic the bell rang....and it was a bus ride home to find an empty house and me without a key to get inside the garage...SEE MATT MY COURTYARD DOOR KEY WAS TAKEN OFF MY KEYS...lol anyways...i ended up finding an open door..great security we have at our place dont we? *rolls eyes* so after amazingly getting in the house i decided to relax before getting ready to go skating...nope 10 minutes later my brother comes home yelling at me about matthew coming over and staying the night for my birthday the night before...even though i got the ok from the mentors... (1 1/2 weeks left) and suddenly a full yelling match had started and tbh i never knew i could scream so loud...that the house echo'd down to the billards room...i was proud of myself but know my throat is paying for it now...so after that "little" fight that could be heard in Italy, i called up sarah to frustrated to go skating and told what happened....gotta love my coach, she takes my side for everything =) so she told me to stay home and relax especially since im her most "accident prone skater" and im clumsy enough when im not annoyed id just be worse now...anyways ive now spent my entire night in my room only going out for dinner and having to make sure my brother wasnt home...silent treatment time....anyways...i think i have now ranted alll i want to rant...im gonna try and blog everyday but if i cant well no loss...
xoxo
KirRawr

Devirginisation for silent j

this is for my wonderful silent j
i love her more then she loves me
and because i devirginiated her blog, she gets to devirginqate mine =D
ENJOY

xoxo